Lying in filth on the bed, I indulge in one of my favorite movies, readying myself for a descent into degeneracy, as if becoming an ogre. I make my way to the shower, pulling a rope to release several loads of feces onto my head. I smear the excrement, allowing it to mix with the water, creating a foul bath. I masturbate, reveling in the scat-filled water, convinced of my similarity to an ogre’s filthy ablutions.